Dearly beloved, are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented?
Or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded?
Or am I just overjoyed?
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word and that's my best excuse
Jesus Of Suburbia — Green Day, American Idiot.
So, in the previous question, Jamie posed a question:
Dude, at the end of the day having a boyfriend/girlfriend isn't everything. It's a damn fine thing when you're in a relationship and you're really happy, but the sad truth is, most teenagers who are in relationships aren't happy and end up getting hurt. At the end of the day, do you need a partner to be happy in yourself? Most people don't, although some do. I guess it depends how you look at it.
So why have I posted so much about love? Maybe my previous post was unclear. Maybe it just made it sound as if I just wanted to go out with someone. The reality is neither of those.
What annoys me is the fact that everyone else seems to be in love, reminding me of my past (and current) failings (see the latter of the above posts), which drives me back into the feeling of hopelessness. But how, you ask, will having a boy/girlfriend not make me think of the same things? My mind will be beyond such things. I doubt I'll be acting as hopelessly as I am now, regardless of whether I made the move or not.
Love, lift me up out of these blues
Won't you tell me something true
I believe in you
Elevation – U2, All That You Can't Leave Behind.
It's about moving on from the past. It's about lifting me up out of depression. It's about the future.
Comments
Caius Durling says…
Edit comment — August 25, 2007 03:10:56+01:00
Having been out of a relationship for over a year now, I have to say I don't miss it entirely. Sure I wish I had someone close to share stuff with, and I don't think that'll ever go away. But other relationshippy stuff such as meeting the family to see them & stuff, don't really miss it!
Life changes as soon as you get out of school anyway. All the idiots in school that had partners either got them pregnant or are single & retarded by society now. Everyone else is just getting on with starting life, be it by themselves, but with friends, or with someone special & friends.
Food for Thought.
Caius.
Richard Gilbert says…
Edit comment — August 25, 2007 04:24:25+01:00
Life sucks. Trufax.
Jamie Rees says…
Edit comment — August 25, 2007 18:49:02+01:00
I see little point in trying to get yourself into a relationship whilst still in secondary school. As Caius said, most of the teenagers who had them are now either single or are just complete retards, probably without jobs living off the dole as single parents.
Most teenagers aren't mature enough for the whole "relationship" thing until they get to atleast 16, sometimes a lot later. Teenager relationships whilst still in secondary school seldom last, but I do know of a few couples who have been together single high school who are now happily married.
Don't feel hopeless mate - don't feel like you can't ever get a partner and don't let your past rejections let you down. I had a few rejections before I got with my current girlfriend (one of them fucked me up quite bad) but at the end of the day, I'm happy now.
Your time will come bro, don't sweat on having a partner now. Your future will be good. When I was 15 I was similar to you are now, feeling that I'd never have a girlfriend - sometimes even now I still don't believe I have one, lol. Just wait, your time will come.
J.