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Love is:

• Relentless,
• Unflinching,
• Uncompromising,
• Self-accepting,
• Incomparable,
• Compassionate,
• Caring,
• Eternal,
• Beautiful.

This is the first of what I intend on being several short poems inspired by search string referrers to this blog (i.e., things people have searched for and found this blog). To start with, let me bring up a theme that has found this blog a lot recently: the relationship between love and hate (this mainly leads to the post entitled Love Leads To Hate).

odi et amo
Never did those ancient words seem so true
Never did they resonate throughout my life
Like they do now

Never did those ancient words seem so true
They seem so frightfully close to me
Like the words do now
For what is a love-sick man to do?

They seem so frightfully close to me
The girls that surround themselves around me
For what is a love-sick man to do?
Could it really be what it seems?

The girls that surround themselves around me
They claim they love me to all their friends
Could it really be what it seems?
Is it all part of a greater joke?

They claim they love me to all their friends
Do I claim to love them in return?
Is it all part of a greater joke?
Should I just ignore them all?

Do I claim to love them in return?
Will I be parodied further?
Should I just ignore them all?
What do they intend to do with their claims?

Will I be parodied further?
Why do I not hate them?
What do they intend to do with their claims?
It just makes me look stupid

Why do I not hate them?
I may as well hate them, for all they have done to me
It just makes me look stupid
Hate is the only solution to this

I may as well hate them, for all they have done to me
Their love is my hate
Hate is the only solution to this
Never did I ever truly want them

Their love is my hate
Never did they resonate throughout my life
Never did I ever truly want them
odi et amo

Why does love have to screw everyone over?
Why the fuck don't I hate her₄?
Why can I love someone who has annoyed me so much?
Why am I always screwed over?

Why does anyone I ever have a chance with annoy me?
Why do lustful actions annoy me?
Why does everything just seem to emphasise my loneliness?
Why do I refuse anything to do with love?

Wouldn't I be better if I did?
Wouldn't it help me?
Wouldn't it rid me of my loneliness?
Wouldn't it help me?

What state am I in when I can't read a book without breaking down?
What must I do to myself to move beyond this?
What can I do to myself to stop refusing love?
What can I do to move forward?

Jesus, take me into Your loving arms.
Jesus, help me through these hard times.
Jesus, remind me of what Your love can do.
Jesus, take my hand and show me the fields of Elysium.

Dearly beloved, are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented?
Or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded?
Or am I just overjoyed?
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word and that's my best excuse

Jesus Of Suburbia — Green Day, American Idiot.

So, in the previous question, Jamie posed a question:

Dude, at the end of the day having a boyfriend/girlfriend isn't everything. It's a damn fine thing when you're in a relationship and you're really happy, but the sad truth is, most teenagers who are in relationships aren't happy and end up getting hurt. At the end of the day, do you need a partner to be happy in yourself? Most people don't, although some do. I guess it depends how you look at it.

So why have I posted so much about love? Maybe my previous post was unclear. Maybe it just made it sound as if I just wanted to go out with someone. The reality is neither of those.

What annoys me is the fact that everyone else seems to be in love, reminding me of my past (and current) failings (see the latter of the above posts), which drives me back into the feeling of hopelessness. But how, you ask, will having a boy/girlfriend not make me think of the same things? My mind will be beyond such things. I doubt I'll be acting as hopelessly as I am now, regardless of whether I made the move or not.

Love, lift me up out of these blues
Won't you tell me something true
I believe in you

Elevation – U2, All That You Can't Leave Behind.

It's about moving on from the past. It's about lifting me up out of depression. It's about the future.

"A household of three" (a literal translation of the above) commonly appears in fiction, but many say it should not enter into reality. Whether it is wrong or not is far clearer when both partners are of the same gender, but what if they are not?

Importantly, why is it wrong when they are both of the same gender? They conflict with one another. Every bisexual I have ever spoken to about this agrees the same thing: men and women are different. It's something that is, in my experience, very hard for monosexuals to grasp, simply as from their experience anybody they are attracted to conflicts with anyone else they are attracted to.

Therefore, it can be said that boyfriends and girlfriends conflict in a single manner: attention (e.g., time, money). These can be dealt with in most cases by simply giving both partners equal attention, ideally spending twice as much time and money as would be done with a single partner.

If done properly, it is possible to have two partners, one of each sex, without either ever infringing on the other.